Visionary Philosopher. ♥

Bored, sad & shattered. Enjoy the song. (;

.......

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

-Chorus- (;
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

Its getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

-Chorus- (;

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here... been waiting here...

-Chorus- (;

.....

I hate myself so much, why do I always take her for granted!
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me for this past few days. Despite all the stuffs
I said to her, she forgave me, but this time, I know she won't.

I just hate myself for being so petty & sensitive. I told myself never to be in a relationship
till I found someone I love. So there she was, always there for me. I know I've been hard on her.
Doubting her feelings towards me, this time I know I went to far.

When I had that dream about her, I knew something wrong was gonna happen. Today is the
day. I regret not cherishing her. I know she's a easy & a happy go lucky girl that makes
friend quickly, maybe thats what I'm petty about, when I see her with other guys.

' we aint suppose to be together ' this sentence said by her.
Its either I was too childish & sensitive that I get so pissed of with her till she can't take it.
Or... she doesn't love me no more. I hope its not the reason that she's not loving me anymore.

Wrote her a little letter of apology with a blue flower to tag along. I'm sorry I'm insincere.
I couldn't think of anything else to make you feel better.

When she didn't wear the ring, I was very dishearted. But I know she won't put it on
no matter what I do. All I hope for now.. is for her to come back to me.

Its time to really cherish things around me if I still can.
I'll love her wholeheartedly. This I promise. No more taking her for granted.

2 days pass, & I miss her alot. Wanted to see her today. But I blew it up by arguing with her
yesterday. Grats myself for being a fool. (;

The things she said.

Girl : Do you like me?
Boy : No.

Girl : Do you wanna be with me?
Boy : No.

Girl : Will you be there when I'm down?
Boy : No.

Girl : Will you think about me once a day?
Boy : No.

Girl : Can I call you whenever I'm lonely?
Boy : No.

Girl : Can you just hold on to me & not leave me alone?
Boy : No.

Girl : Will you get into a new relationship when I'm dead?
Boy : No.

Replied...

I don't like you because I love you.
I don't wanna be with you cause I'm already always there behind you.
I won't be there when u're feeling down because I'm already hugging you to make feel better.
I can't think of you once a day because you're all that I can think about.
You don't need to call me because I'm just right beside you.
I can't hold you because you're already my life, my love, my everything.
I won't get into a relationship because I'll be in the same coffin as you.

....

I will never find another lover.... sweeter then you.... sweeter then you.
I'm waiting for her to come online, so I can spend time with her.
But she's with her ex-dar's friend training. Can't argue. Don't wanna argue.
Just have to wait. Sometimes I wish I could be like my dad/uncle. But its hard.
I'll try.. I'll try...

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

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