Visionary Philosopher. ♥

Second post in 1 day. >.<
What is wrong with me recently, school works? friends? girlfriend?
I don't know, I'm confused. Am I suffering from depression?
I shout her name while I sleep. I see her image everywhere when I'm
awake.

I don't know what is going on with me. I'm feeling like how I felt 2months ago.
She was all I could think of for the past few days. Thanks to schoolworks,
I'm so screwed up in my brain.

Today is definitely not my bad. I didn't know why I was so uptight with
her.
Over what she said to me. ' got people take care of me xD '
1st thinking that went through my mind was. She is trying to tell me..

'You can fuck off anytime, I got alot of guys at bunk waiting to be with me'
I didn't know why I had this thinking but I felt so lost, worried I may lose her again.
I don't know how to express to her about the things she do.
Was I wrong to tell her that I caught up with my bad habit?
Or should I just continue to lie to her?
Is she doing this to me to get back at me for those lie I being telling her for this while?
I know no matter how much apology I said to her, she won't forgive me.
I'm just very afraid to lose her.

School started & my feelings for her grew very strongly.
I miss her. So much, thought I was gonna see her today.
She plan to meet me today for dinner. But when she said she was busy.
It shattered my heart.

'Lets meet tomorrow' thou I wanna see her so badly,
but I just don't understand why must she lie to me about saying she was gonna meet me & then posphone it.

Yeah, I know, I lied to her, so she has every right to avoid me & to not love me anymore.
Heard she was gonna meet her maple dar's friends this friday & meeting some other people on saturday.
Guess I won't be seeing her this week.
'Only >> can cut queue' This was said in maple. Is it true?
Seeing her without the ring made for her make me ache alot.

Am I too petty till the extend whereby each time I view her friendster/blog/msn.
I get so uptight with what she done.

Friendster's picture with another guy she love. Blog with those words that are so hurtful.
'True love' not being found. Adore her wifes, dar(s), dear, honey & the list goes on.
Msn nick that doesn't have anything to do with me.
I'm so caught up. I wanna quit school.

Just wanna spend time with her.
I miss talking to her on phone,
I miss her voice,
I miss the way she used to talk to me,
I miss the sense of security she gave me,
I miss her smile,
I miss her so much.

To make someone love so, is to be given the freedom to whoever he/she wishes to have.
Therefore, when they return to you, they're forever be with you.
I don't know.. I don't know, wo bu zhi dao, wo zhen de bu zhi dao .
I can't risk letting her go, I'm afraid she would get closer to another guy & .....
I can't, I just can't say it. While reading this, tears flow down... I don't know.

Am I too ashame to be in your friendster/msn picture?
Am I a disgrace to be with you?
Am I such a bother that you can't take that few mins to clear things to make me feel better?

Just wanted someone to share my problems with. But she always look so busy & happy,
didn't wanna make her felt unhappy.

Suffer in silence, is to make your loves one happy, not to be disappointed & upsad for whoever
she/he is with.

To the world, you may be one person,
But to me, you're my world.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

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