This song is dedicated to the girl whom I love alot. Blog was created for her,
therefore, this will be the last post.
Enjoy the song. (;
4days passed since I felt being loved. Once bitten, twice shy.
I know there won't be a 2nd chance. Fews days back, my thinking wasn't straight
& I thought I still had the chance.
Sad to say, but finally, today is the day where she made it very clear to me.
Perivously, I felt I had the chance to be with her once again.
Her passwords, her messages, her replieds. Felt that she still had feelings for me till
today.
Thou I hate to say goodbye, but like what she said, I'm selfish by
holding on to the rob that leads to her when she no longer wanna be with me.
I'm sorry I couldn't figure it out clearly, your hints, words, pictures are already examples
of what you had planned for. I just need time to forget you. Its a one sided love.
& I can't help seeing you with other guys. It hurts me alot.
'If' often when people used the word 'If' its already too late.
I only blame myself for not cherishing what's gone now.
Like my girlfriend Diana.
Its too late for anything now. Thou I know I should wait for her,
Its better if I leave her alone.
I hate myself for controlling her in the past.
Instead of loving her, I doubt her alot.
Its kills me to see the way we are treating each other.
I don't deserve her heart after what I've done to her. & I know theres no way,
she's gonna give me a chance too.
I took the 1st chance given from her for granted & this is the price I have to pay.
Looking at the girl I love the most, drafting away...
Haas, stupid me, thought by writing a letter of apology with a blue water could make
her forgive me. I'm so insincere. Damn me.
Thought we could be back together on that day but it all turn out not as I expected,
seeing her mega-ed '<3
I didn't wanna believe it was true till I saw her with him yesterday,
Saturday afternoon at the foodcourt.
I have no right to tell her to come back to me, but my heartaches alot
everytime I see her not with me in game.
Loving someone you truly love is hard,
Letting them go is harder, but if thats what she wants.
I'll just have to respect her decision.
thank you Girlfriend, for all the wonderful memories. Althought it was only
1month and a half. It was the best moments I had in 2007.
I didn't wanna believe the 2nd break up was for real.
But I could felt that your feelings for me have totally fadded to the extreme.
& maybe thats why you no longer give me the attention you once let me felt
when we were back then together.
I miss those times when we called each other bf & gf.
Thou you replied to my messages time & again, but I could felt the change in you.
you were irritated by messaging someone who hurted you alot.
loving someone that finds you irritating,
loving someone that didn't really pay attention to what you're messaging,
loving someone so much that you wanted her to at least show a little care & concern.
4days of crying is a well payed lesson for me.
pain & regret I'm going through.
I'm not a good boyfriend,
when I told you days ago that I wanted you back, your respond was very clear.
Much more clearer then the 1st patch up.
So sorry for the argument, childishness & shit attitude I gave you before.
Thou it hurts to see you getting into a new relationship. I would rather not let you
suffer no more. But by letting you get a better boyfriend.
You have my blessings. I sincerely wish you all the best with you maple dar.
I won't interfere with you no more. I'll get out of your life.
I'm happy when I see you smiling. (;
12th January 6.58pm. Was our 2nd month & the last time I see your smile.
I love you so much Diana. Hope you're find your 'True Love' as listed in your blog.
I guess I'm mentally prepared to watch her say she love me no more.
Guess I'll miss you my friend... When the time is right.. when the time is right...
To my maple buddies :-
xxNe369ZhAxx (dear)
x3ruDit3x5iN (jeremy)
Xaeus04 (bro)
baBytiaNsHi (zhu)
HSpearManH (toh)
xBlueblack (randy)
JumpAndShoot (jas/alex)
violentChaN (leslie)
Rourou (yin)
XiaoZiZu (keat)
PlaysPretty (az)
MisssyLin (linnie)
leEnleEnNn
Zell860 (sub)
BiLLaB0n6 (sean)
xiaosia07 (marilyn)
bAbyOliAng (4in1)
Thank you guys for your support all this while. Appericate it alot. Toodies.
Gone. melvin (;
