Visionary Philosopher. ♥

LOL.

I can't stop laughing, but here is it.
I got nothing to blog, just happened that my bro was watching
this video that really crack me up badly. haha. ;x

Enjoy the video!

(;

Hope to meet my princess tomorrow.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

3:40 AM

(;

Its 1.30am.
Came out from my 30mins shower.

Nothing happened much today, woke up, dress, left for school.
Reach school 1.14pm, nobody came. Called martin.
'Today no class' -_-'

tmd, wasted my time walking over.
Well, anyway, went home. Chill out for awhile.
Princess wanted to go bunk, so decided to go over to find her
after my window shopping.

Went to far east at 2.30pm. Walk around, looking for a present
for my cousin. She's coming 18th! Just weeks older then me.
Oh well, walked from far east to plaza singapura,
couldn't find any thing to buy for her.

Met up with my princess & jas. Bored to the max.
Sat at bunk like a jerk.
Not long later, finally out of bunk, went to ps to buy something
before accompanying jas to the foodcourt for his dinner.

7pm, yawns, princess & jas went home. Boring day.
But who cares, I get to see my princess. (;

Took a slow walk to bugis to meet up with some old friends.
Sat at a don't know how to explain place. -_-'
Ordered a jug of cocktail & beer.

Had a super looooooooooooooong chat with them.
Miss those times when we stayed back in school to have a round
of soccer match.
Seriously, I miss secondary & pri's school lifestyle.
Everything was just so carefree. No worries, no problem.
Just us.

Tomorrow's lesson starts at 9am & I can't get to sleep
with those nightmares & my mind is going wild with
those rubbish thinking.

.....

My life is getting more & more out of hand.
I can't stand a day not talking to her.
Its killing me.
Life is short, just hope & pray
everything will go smoothly. I'm lost,
confused, frustrated, irritated.

I'm just aint myself.
I used to agree with friends that life is cruel,
but then again, its how you control your lifestyle
& about how to fit into the environment.
I'm losing my touch & control.
Wondering how was it possible, knowing
I was fine before everything that happened.
Everything is moving so quickly.

I'll just have to catch up to time & let everything fall into place.
but.. I'm afraid I can't handle the outcome.
1 more day.
Off to my own paradise.
If I can make it out of there peacefully...
Hopefully I do... (;

.....

Till then, toodies.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

1:22 AM

Tuesday Zzz.

Sigh, woke up.
On com, went online msn for awhile.
Saw my classmate online! WTF!
Told me he wasn't going to school.
So I didn't turn up for school too. :P

I just don't mix well with malay & tamil people in my class.
Racist? Maybe?
Don't know, can't stand those malay & tamil people in my class,
thou I had some malay friends from secondary school.
They are much better then those I'm having now in school.

Oh well, who gives a shit anyway.
Went out for lunch, chatted with my princess on the way.
Rotted at home as usual on weekdays.
Watch TV till 5pm.

My princess was moody =(
& I added salt into her wound. I'm so sorry princess.

5.30pm, left house to meet my father at toa payoh.
Lost my specs. tmd, went over to toa payoh to buy a new one.
Cost me $200! !(*@!(*@!(@&

Choose a brownish flamed specs. Wanted to collect it on the following week,
but to my surprised,
he told us to go back in 30mins. Oh my gosh, how efficient.
Went to had dinner with my father & walk around
toa payoh before collecting the specs.

While having dinner, told my dad about my cousin's coming birthday.
How time flies. she's 18th in 1week time
& I'm gonna be 18th in 3weeks.

Talk for awhile. Told me about how time flies.
Its really going too fast.
I can even recall those days when I was still taking my PSLE.
When my dad was nagging about me not studying.
& now, I'm already 18. Well, going. x)
Took those words strongly, aint no more gangsterism.
Time is passing so fast, I don't wanna miss out on anything,
don't wanna walk on the streets with worried face.
Thinking if someone is getting back at me.

When you sit down & really take to recall those
times when you're hanging out under your block with
your neigbhours playing soccer.
Its really a good memory.
If only I could just relive those moments during my childhood.

Basic principal is always the same.
No one know whats gonna happen tomorrow, cherish those around you
while you can.
Take the step before its too late for any regrets.
Make the 1st move before someone else does.
Being with those whom you think you feel comfortable being with.
Complete those jobs before its gone.

If I could just stop time from moving so fast..
I won't be so pathetic now. Guess I just have to start cherishing those around me.

& to those jokers out there.
Being it whether you're happy or unhappy with me.
Please tell me straight in the face.
Don't be a dog. Continue to life in your own world.
If thats your purpose in life.
Go ahead man, go ahead. Corrupt your life more.
Call me a coward if you must.
I don't see any reason to waste anymore of
my precise time to entertain you.
Convert those entertaining times to enjoying time.

Till then, toodies.
I'm off to meet my princess~
I miss her so so much. (x

.....

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

1:08 AM

Monday.

Woke up for once without my alarm clock.
Waited for my princess's message.
Replied her at 10am, still semi-asleep, replied & went back to sleep.
Sorry princess~ x(

Fully awaken at 12noon. 1hour before school.
Didn't went to school thou, grandmother called.
Told me my brother didn't bring key to school,
so, oh well, waited for him at home.

3pm. Gracious, can't go back to school.
Stayed at home, watch tv, chatted with my princess.
Played dota while she was busy with her work.

Life is sooo damn boring during weekdays.
Imagine during my holidays. Oh my.
Rot at home doing nothing. >.<
Hopefully I can get my maple equipment by end of Feb.
So I can start training to kill time.
Usual stuffs on weekdays.

Entertained myself with TV or chat with my princess when she's free.
Other then that, nothing much can be done.

10pm. Exercise abit, don't wanna look so shaggy.
3more weeks to birthday! Oh my gosh! I seriously can't wait for that day.

1year passed since I last celebrated with my
maple friends.
Hopping for those same faces to come celebrate this
memorable mature 18th birthday with them together with my princess of course. :p

......

Its come to my attention that when things
are just not going my way.
Selfish in a way, but yet, just want it to happen.
Love is selfish. Thats why this world is corrupted.

Then again, life isn't complete without your loves one
by your side.

Thou when signs for you to give up are there.
Believe in giving your 101% in everything you do.
The results will be amazing. Even if rejected.
All you can do is to tell yourself,
you tried your best.

Rejection sure is hard to take,
but then again, oneself can't force love
it takes 2 hand to clap.

Accept it,
Don't deny it,
Move on.

Jealousy arise in times, but its the test
you must put yourself to it.
Self-control is the best disciplinery action
that only yourself can handle it.
Ignore spoken words,
Take the trust whom he/she gives to you.
Love it, dote it, enjoy everybit of it.

....

Hopping for an outing this saturday. Sigh,
it sucks to have so little friends.
One can't make it, sadness overtake everything.

Till then, toodies!
Time for bed. Meeting my PS in dreamland.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

1:56 AM

Saturday's Blog (;

Slept at 5am on friday, woke up at 10am.
Exhausted. What choice do I have, work for money.

Went to Eunos followed, office work.
Boring. Sat there for practically 4hours doing nothing but
just looking at white paper with black ink wordings on it. ;x
File them up. Key in some data.

Finally, 5pm. Knock off! Woohoo.
Make my way to Plaza Singapura to meet my same old friends.
Didn't really care thou ;x
Just wanted to meet my princess.
Met up with zizu, jas, linnie & pz. Randy was late, again.
Waited for him upstairs at the smoking area, before having lunch!
Staving, didn't had anytime for lunch eariler on during work.
pz went off while we were heading to the food court.

As usual, sat there, had lunch, chit chat for alittle while before
planning what to do next.
Decided to catch a movie.

Walk to Cathay, 11.25pm show! Goodness.
& it was only like 8pm?
3hours to showtime. Oh well, back to our saturday's drinking club! xD
Woohoo, went back to the same pub.

Ordered Bourdon Coke & Cranberry vodka.
linnie & jas ordered some disgusting pasta that gave me a
deep impression whereby it says ' please don't order me '
It was a total turn off.

Slack, slack & more slack.
2nd glass of vodka & jas was knocked out.
Talking at the top of his voice, he was high. What a drinker.
Face was red, mouth was moving non-stop.
Father mother coming out from every corner of his lips.
Was fun thor. Talking rubbish about each other. x)

The final part where all was knocked out with laughter.
True or Dare game.

Questions about true is boring.
Dare is where the fun begins.

Zizu's dare : ' ohhh, this tree is good. hug me more baby '
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, not true. but part of it. ;x

Jas's dare : ' wifey, wo ai ni. ' how romantic.
if only she was there to experience it face to face. x(

RANDY's dare : ' Jas, ni jin wan yo kong mah ? '
Jer : ' yo ni ma de cb la ' * chup *
fierce sister.
Lmao. can't stop laughing.

Nothing about me. (;
For me to know & for you to find out.
My question, my piroity.

10.44pm. Paid the bills.
Princess went to JP );

Walked to Cathay.
Waited outside before we could went in to get sitted.
L, change the world.

L is adorable & Handsome! but you wouldn't find anyone that is like him in reality.
Sad. If he does exist in reality,
he will be a laughing stock.

2hours 15min passed.
Show's over, went toilet, saw my dear! Oh my gosh!
Such a coincidence!

2nd round! Drink~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Went back to drink. -_-
Pack with people. Match was exciting. Man United vs Arsenal.
Jas & randy was dead. Couldn't handle the next glass of cocktail.
Drank 2 glass. Headache. >.< The alcohol is too strong if drunk in 1 shot.

Can't carry on no more.
Took a cab home. Shower~
Off to dreamland to meet my princess.

.................

Sunday -.-

_l_ed up day. Nothing much to talk about.
No events, just rotted at home with my computer.
Chat with my P.S.
Was having a headache from yesterday's drink. Took a nap, woke up!
my P.S sent me a cupid ring. O.O
Was surprised she send me that.

P.S ! Don't send me cause of what I gave you on V'Days!
I won't accept it as an exchange gifted. ;D
If you know what I mean.
So glad you have finally woken up from you pathetic fantastic
to move on with your life!
I love my P.S

To those other readers, skip this part. It aint for you anyway. (;

P.S ? No need to know.
She know, I know. Others no need to know. :P

The song played says it all.

Worth the heart,
Not for a new start,

But for a price that,
Only you can feed that bowl of rice.

A bell that makes the ding,
like the ring given in a blink.

Darkest past lighten up with
your sorrowful heart.

..

Fate brought us together,
Being your friend was a choice,
Loving you was beyond my control.

To love, its a gift.
To be love, its a blessing.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

3:27 AM

Valentine's Day!

Was into the mood, so woke up at 8am after a 3hours of 'sleep'
Thought I was gonna be late for class, but to my surprised.
I was the only one in class at that hour. Woot.
Did some practical till 11.30am.

Went to canteen to grab a little something to eat before going home
to get ready for the 1st celebration I'm gonna have in my life.
Valentine's Day on 2008.

Shower, did a little hair make-over before heading to Lavender to meet
my princess.
Took MRT to tampines. Jump&Pcc's WIFE was in danger.
Upon hearing that, he panic, took a cab from bukit batok to tampines.
Haas, how protective. Oh my gosh.

Went shopping for Jump&Pcc's WIFE's valentine's day present.
He bought a braclet for her.
Met up with xiaosia07 & went to the interchange to catch a bus to Simei ITE.
My princess is finally soon to be awaken, accompanied her to the school
to apply for a course.

5pm. Went to Cineleisure. Bought movie tickets for the show CJ7,
slack awhile at the foodcourt
before our regular milo peng drinker Randy came.

Walk around cineleisure to kill time before the movie started.
Played table hockey. -_-'
Basket, twisted my arm. Aching like crazy now.
Went to collect present before going back for the movie.

8.45pm.
Took a puff before sending my princess back home. Not exactly home,
but near her place. =x

...

From emotional situation partners to friends.
A feeling that cannot be explain occur during the process thou
its just a one sided feeling. x)

She entered my life shortly after my break down. I thank her for being there.
After those breakdowns.

Was no longer the same,
Became someone with a strong attitude problem.
Bad tempered.

Never care about how others feel,
Neither do I expect others to know how I feel.
Lost trust in everyone. Not even my closest kin,
someday, they might turn the tables on you.

UNTIL,

She whom I called princess step into my world,
didn't had any good impression on her.
Miraculously, after a short time of just 24days. I felt different towards her.
She let me felt love on earth thou we're not related.

STILL,

she changed my life,
i'll learned to cherish those around me,
i'll control my temper,
i'll control my jealousy,
i'll do anything to be with her,
she's all i could think of.
thou at times, neglected, a task to overcome.
with love that is so strong,
nothing could ever possibly step into the bond.
gave her a necklace with icons that explains it all.
for her to know & for me to seek. x)

BUT,

its hard to complete the unlinked heart
with all the unwanted nuisance, the longing for each to be link as one.
just a dream i wish i could just live with it.
But at times, reality strikes back & the longing for the
heart just can't be start.

i'm glad the 1st valentine's day was a wonderful moment.
i'm glad she join us for the outings.
i'm glad she tried to get into the mood after those breakdowns she had.

Questions running throught your mind, the seeking for answers.

Kept the gift till after the very last goodbye.
- was to give her a surprise.

Boarded the train till the very end.
- was to see the smile on her face.

Followed her till the end.
- was to spend time with her.

Bought her a little something not as a token.
- but as a simple love.

Didn't ask much.
- can't afford to handle the truth.

...

Even thought the numbers of days
had we known each other.
I'll walk the path that
lead us from the day we met towards
an endless route.
Bearing no hatred,
no anger,
but just you & me

its for me to seek & for you to find out. xD

Roses are red.
violets are blue.
but the same 2 feelings have no clue.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

1:26 AM

Wednesday!

Left house for school at 1pm.
Today's lesson was pretty boring, but still, went for my attendance.
Teacher mumbling all the way, can't be bothered.
Teachers asked for attention because they just can't make us pay attention with their booooooooring theories ~_~

Well anyway, chatted with Jos in class.

12midnight! Happy Valentine's Day to one & all! Especially you princess!

Jos! you emotional fucker, this is for you!

Its just Valentine's day, so what if she rejects you.
You're not the only one in singapore who has being rejected.
The period between her & you are not more then a month,
Though I know sometimes, thou its just a short period, but feelings occur
inbetween those conversation you have with her.
But, how long will it last if she continues to be like this?
She just can't make up her mind, seriously,
you yourself know how she talks to you.
She doesn't have a clue, at this moment she misses you.
While on the other hand, she misses her preivous.
She's in a mess. Back off till she has settle down.
Its harsh, but lets not get ourself hurt like before.
Better to avoid then to get hurt, but if she's the one you wanna be with.
Like I said before.

Shower those you love with care & concern, not shower with cash.
Its sweet of you to buy her a gift. I understand, but you must understand
you situation.

Our age, cash flow is one thing, if she's with you because you're rich.
Don't bother (;
Love her WHOLE HEARTEDLY,
Dote on her,
Cherish her & give her the attention she needs.
A girl should love you for who you are, not what you give.
Its only then, the relationship will last.
Your charm is also your curse. =x

...

Its that time of the year again. Valentine's day.
Never celebrated Valentine's Day before,
so well, don't know whats so special. Didn't had any chance to celebrate. >.<
Best wishes to those lovely couples out there!
My blessings are with you! Good luck!

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

12:53 AM

Today's blog is just for my darling Princess

....

Kai Bu Liao Kou.

cai li kai mei duo jiu jiu kai shi
dan xin jin tian de ni guo de hao bu hao
zheng ge hua mian shi ni
xiang ni xiang dao shui bu zhao
zui du du na ke ai de mu yang
hai you zai ni shen shang xiang xiang de wei dao
wo de kuai le shi ni
xiang ni xiang de dou hui xiao
mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao
(mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao duo fan nao)
mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao
(mei you ni fan wo duo fan nao duo nan ao)
chuan guo yun ceng
wo shi zhe nu li xiang ni ben pao
ai cai song dao
ni que yi zai bie ren huai bao

jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni ye dou ni xiao
ni dui wo you duo zhong yao wo hou hui mei rang ni zhi dao
an jing de ting ni sa jiao kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao

jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju wo ban bu dao
zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong
wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhe
zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao
dan nei ge ren yi jing bu shi wo

...

Today was a boring day!
Did nothing, so no point blogging.
Today's post is for my princess.

Princesssssssssssssss.

ni yuan yi pei wo du guo qing ren jie ma? (;
till the awaited message.
Off to sleep! x)

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

3:21 AM

Monday. zzz

A new week, school starts, bored.
Woke up at 12noon, went online to chat awhile before
leaving for school.

Slept throughout school hours. Was too exhausted to do anything.
Today's class was abit bored too. From practical to complete theory.
Class ended at 3.15pm.

Reach home, had lunch, went online for awhile.
Buddies all afk, msn all afk, no one could entertain me.
So went to take a short nap.

Woke up at 5.30pm. Back to my chair & computer. -_-'
Talk & talk & talk till 10pm. Finally, a dota inhouse match.
Boring but yet, entertaining, killed 1hour of my time.

11pm already. -_-'
What a boring day, yet time passes so fast.
Chat with my princess awhile, before I went to shave.
lmao, cut myself on the cheek.

Arghh, I got nothing to blog!
Weekdays are just so boring.
Stopping here. Enjoy the song, if not, close this blogs.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

12:21 AM

Sunday.

Woke up, whole family out.
Home alone till 9pm. No lunch, no dinner.
Practically stave the whole day.

Dota, chat, maple all day long.
Parents reached home at 9.30pm
Order mac for me, knowing I didn't ate for the whole afternoon.

Zzz..

every step that was taken from that day onwards, was to get closer,
its only till then, I was convicted that I can't live up to any expectation of a girl.
Time has shown the path, the way to take a step back.
Numb.

More or less, the answer is there, to take a step back or to continue
stepping towards the goal.
Surrounded with questions. & idiots are appearing to corrupt the moments.
Flirts are what make oneself lose confident in every aspect of your existance.
& unless, without great power from another, I see no way
you could turn the table around to the proper position.
Words, actions, gives out the personality you're having.
Putting yourself to the test, its diffcult, if somehow, you manage to pull throught,
Its when you turn into a changed person.

Till that someone decide to open that door from the outside,
its when you think that person will be who you wanna be with.
On the other hand, the other party don't seek the same thinking as you.

Thats when you're back to square one.
Situations alike are best to be left alone, before the wound reopens.
Upon understanding the personality that whoever is carrying,
will only the 2 hands clash & make a lovely sound.
Other then that, don't waste everybodys' time.
Show signs, movement.

20days & counting.

(; till then, toodies!

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

11:29 PM

Saturday afternoon!

Woke up late as expected.
Shower, get dress & left house at 3pm.
Went down to PCBunk to meet up with some friends.
XiaoZiZu, Jump&PCC, xBlueblack, xbubibubi, violentChaN, OoMrBoOoO & stephanie. my princess!

Went to PS for lunch, took a troll back to bunk to wait for violentChaN,
as usual, always last to arrived,
while waiting, went to Rocky Master to slack.

7pm, all arrived, headed to Cathay to catch a show time.
Kung Fu Dunk! 9.55pm. 2hours 55mins to do nothing!
Goodness, party time.
Walked to a open area pub to drink abit.
Shared Cranberry vodka with my princess while
Jump&Pcc shared heiniken with violentChaN.

Pictures of Before & after. Not all, just him ;x
The noob.

Excited, waiting for his beer to come! x)

After awhile...

lmao, our famous Jump&Pcc cannot take it.
Asked violentChaN to finish for him.

So sad, didn't took a pic of the others. xD

9.30pm, walked back to Cathay to watch the movie.
My princess was drunk. x)
Complained about having a headspin, accompanied her till she was leaving for Jurong.
Some snap shots of her. =p

How shy can she be. (;

C'mon! You can do better! Smile :D

10.30pm, went to watch the movie. Ended at 12midnight!
Bored, was dying of boredam, decided to went to a nearby lanshop to kill time.
Playing half way.. Thunder headache came.
Fucked up. Was totally blank, couldn't concentrate on the game.
Dizzy, headache.
Told them to end the game as soon as possible, so I could go home & rest.

2.30am ~_~
Just came out from the showers.
Till then! Thats all for today xD
I'm off to dreamland to meet my princess. x3 misses~
Toodies!

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

2:15 AM

Lunar New Year!

Woke up at 10am, sms-ed my princess before washing up.
Mother & sister still sleeping, so took my own sweet time, rest for a little while
before heading for the bathroom.
Took a 15mins shower before coming out, didn't know what set of clothes
to wear. So took quite awhile before I decided what to wear.

Went to wax my hair alittle before the whole family was ready to leave.
Left house at around 12noon, visited my grandfather before heading
towards Bedok to find my uncle.

Frustrated, waited under the hot sun for 30mins. Not even a single cab came.
Called a taxi instead of waiting any longer.
Damn the weather, made me sweat alot.

Sweaty & hungry, finally, the cab arrived, reach uncle house at 1pm.
1st thing was obivously out of question, greeted everyone a happy lunar new year
before having my lunch!

Boy, the food was simply delicious, enjoyed it alot.
Bloated, oh my, went to the sofas to sit with cousins. Took some pics.
- yet to upload >.< awaiting for the photos to be sent -
HAHA, took photos with me like I was a japan actor :x
Was quite fun thou, 1st time taking so many photos with cousins.

2pm, left uncle's place.
Took a bus to simei, visit another relative.
Fucked up place, couldn't find the address, walk like mad.
Sweat again, took a 30mins walk before we reach. The house was big & nice.
But yet, boring, nothing much to do.
Took a short nap before my mom woke me up.

3rd place. My auntie uncle! ( mom's side ).
Simei towards woodland, slept in the cab. Reach about 4pm? 5pm?
Not sure thou, didn't keep track.
Well anyway, cousins & auntie were playing mahjong, I was just watching tv. >.<
Complaining about the hunger that was killing me.
Ask auntie faster cook, so I can eat.

7pm, watch channel 8 show & had dinner.
Rest awhile after the show before my family decided to take our leave & go home.
Was too exhausted after all the walking & travelling.
Reach home, rest awhile before heading for the showers.
Ang Bao money wasssssssss so little this year.

Rotted.
&
Rotted.

2am, hunger started. Wanted to cook some food, but the fucking frying pan is spoilt.
No heat. -_-'
Cheebye. Gastric started! Oh my tian, no medication. Ate biscuits. Drank a cup of milo.
Pathetic.
Moody.

....

don't pissed me off at the wrong time please jos.
know your limits, I don't have that much patience as you do.
fucktard, don't test my strenght.

....

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

4:25 AM

Arhhhhhhh.
My blog! Introduction got error after changing my picture >.<
Look stupid thou, but I like!
Waiting for MY princess to help me =X

Anyway!

Woke up at 12.30noon today. -_-'
Threw my bloster away for awhile. =X went to wash up. wahahah.
Went back to hug my bloster for 20mins before I went for my shower & off
to bugis to meet my mother!
Bugis was so packed, not just packed, packed with gangsters. diao.
So suggested to go to wisma(topshop) & far east to get my clothes for chinese new year.
Reached wisma at about 3.30pm, saw a pink top, found it cute. =X
So I bought it, went to far east to get shades & belt.
PINKKISH SHADES. LMAO,
Mother : ah boy, since when you became so gay. -.-'
rofl, cannot take it. Just kept on laughing.
Bought a jack daniel's belt. Cool thou. Shops were all closing, so nothing much to do,
went home.

Dinner time!

Just finish my reunion dinner. This year was a disappointment thou.
Only my family & grandmother.
Unlike last time, whole family, meaning, aunties & uncles family come together to eat.

BUT ;

Whatever, I enjoy it. & today was the 1st time in my life whereby I ate my 1st abalone. ;x
I find it so-so, nothing special. Steamboat is always filling.
My, my, I'm so full now.

Looking forward to tomorrow's 'PAYDAY' collection. Can't wait for count the cash.
Hope its more then last year. >.<

Fuck it. I got nothing else to bloggggggggg. Bored. -____-'

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lmao. fucktard.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

7:33 PM

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My princess wants me to blog. Don't know what to blog.

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Woke up early today, surprisingly. As usual, on com, stare at desktop.
Aww, fuck it, my backbone is giving me problems.
Over did my execrise yesterday. Shag. Push over the limit.

Grandmother was doing house cleaning. Can't clean tomorrow~
Chinese new year stuffs I guess.

Rotted like mad, watch the same old programs shown on TV.
Father got home at 7pm, gave me a black face. I thought what the fuck?
Then he show me the letter of absence sent from my school. lmao. gg.
At that moment, I knew I was gonna get nag for hours.
True enough, while having dinner, heard him give me free techno lesson for 2hours.

After it was over. Fucked up, moody. Didn't like it. But, oh well, its what parents do.
Watch the 9pm-10pm show. Went into maple, thought I could get less moody inside.
But it didn't help much, went to afk, continue with my exercise.

Thought about what my father said to me. Push against my limit again.
Left shoulder is aching badly. I tried to write, but I can't, didn't know why did it affect my fingers.

Rest for 30mins before I had my shower. Came out, talked in maple for awhile before
logging out. Nabei.
Jump&Pcc with Jeff, go channel 20 find a girl come talk to me.
Ask about being together in game. _l_
Am I that cheap? cheeeeese pie. -_______________-''

Went YouTube to watch some videos. Chat with joseph & stephanie in msn.
My princess is requesting for today's blogggggggggggg.
Heres you're blog princessssssssss. men yi le mah. >.<
Chatting with her & blogging, didn't know what to say. -_-'
Treat your pillow with care! If not I'll abuse my bloster! >:(
Go sleep after reading this. Lie with care.

This is where the screwed up part started. Cheese pie.
Forgot I put my cigarette into the green tea can, went to take a sip.
Oh my fucking gosh, I drank the ash! DISGUSTING!
Went to take a can of new green tea to remove the fucking smell. Can't!!!!!!!
Smellyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy tmddddddddddddddddd,
still trying to remove the smell. Its bad, I'm having soar throat, now with this ash.
Oh my, it worsen it alot. -_-'
Coughing like crazy now.

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Joseph, you fucking bitch, talk to you, don't want listen.
Now you feel have the pain, continue to go with her, you'll gonna suffer x10 the pain
you're going throught now.
For pity sake, you're been used as a subtitude, don't disgrace yourself,
have your pride, make you move.
Get away from the rotten goo.
1 word to descibe her.
WORTHLESS!

But you're one lucky bastard that I know you for almost my whole life.
If not, I'll ask you to stop pestering me & kindly fuck off.

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Happy Chinese New Year EVE!!!
1 more day to the collection of my 'PAYDAY'

Angbao lai lai lai~~
woohoo.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

3:44 AM

Tuesday morning. 2am

Frustrated, confused by my surrounding, using this to vent it as much as possible.
What a day whereby my handphone is spoilt, 2days away from chinese new year. _l_
Just had supper.
Father was talking, nagging to my sister & myself.
About the things we're currently undergoing, pressure is increasing.
Getting more & more strict nowadays, its either his under stress in his job,
or he just mean well. I don't know.

Anyway, woke up at 10am this morning thanks to the macdonald man.
Spamming my house phone, destroying my door.
Thought my mom would answer, but when I woke up, no one was home.
lmao.
Quickly open the door & apologize, told him to keep the reminding change as tips. (;
Slept 4hours today. Feeling tired & depressed, I'm tired, but I just can't close my eyes.
Too many things to think about.

Went to school at 1pm, got home by 3pm or so.
Dying of boredam. Played dota, maple.
Chat on msn, stuffs. Nothing much to do anyway.

Yawns,

Rotted like a dog at home. Watched 5.30-6.30 show.
Followed by 7.30-8.30pm
& not to forget 9pm-10pm show.

Chatted in game awhile before I went for a short exercise.
Did alittle overboard, muscles are aching.
Rest for 30mins, gastric started, no appetite when dinner was serve.
Control the pain till 12midnight till I decided to order macdonalds. again.
Yeah. lmao, got cursed by the idiot stephanie. Ask me to die early.

How I wish I could, life's miserable. I see no point in continuing this life no more.
Lets hope something bad happen to me soon, end all this misery.
Pray for a better life in the next world. ;D

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C'mon bro, seriously, don't be dumb. You're just ' the REBOUND GUY '
She is just using you to forget her ex.
You're just a subtitude. She aint loving you, just using you. Be smart please.
If she's in a mess, you better step aside, or you're get yourself into the mess.
Althought love is blind, but love the person if you think you can find happiness with.
Don't make it a one sided love, you'll just get hurt.
One day, she may just say it out loud ' I miss my ex-boyfriend alot '
How are you gonna handle this unbearable situation? Think twice.
This is what I got to say to you. Take care my friend.
Always here with open ears for you. Text me if you must. (;

Love, means giving someone the ability to hurt you, trusting they won't.
Remember this.

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I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

2:04 AM

Sunday afternoon~ o.O

haas. woke up as any normal sundays. 3pm.
Got a mega thunder headache. Boy, the liquor was that strong to make it stay in my head.
Whole family went out to buy chinese new year clothes & left me alone at home.

Didn't really do much thou, played maple, dota, watch tv.
Boring sundays.

7.30pm, watch Triple X.
Old show, but what the hell, just to pass time. Ended at 9.30pm
Family all back from shopping & mama bought me a green shirt. >.<
Looks cool. She done my shopping for me. ;D

10pm, watch Final destination 2.
Fucking lanjiao show. Singapore too fucked up. Censored those cool parts.
Spoil the whole show. Watched half way till I slept. -_-'
Woke up at 12midnight. Watch HBO.
Boring shows. Went to maple. Woot, whole buddy was so pissed off.
>.<

Felt like a jinx, logged in & see all vulgarities coming from every angle. =x
Whatever it is, chill babes, hunks.

Thats lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Get over it. In terms of relationship.
Theres no ' blame me for being a lousy girlfriend / boyfriend '
Its just your luck if your girlfriend / boyfriend doesn't love you no more.
Painful feeling, but, you have to move on.
The heart is the strongest muscle, but why wanna let it break so easily?

Get things back to normal with your girlfriend / boyfriend?
Congrats, but, will the same argument occur?
Don't think short terms, think long terms. Its only from that kind of thinking.
Your relationship bonding grows stronger.
Rushing into a relationship is seriously a pathetic way to get together

UNLESS

Your feelings for each other is true, don't get into a relationship if
the other party don't feel the same for you man. Its a waste of time.
Get a LIFE will ya. Its not all that. xD

Sign out,
MELVINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ROCKS!
Thank you thank you. muacks all. =D

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

5:01 AM

Not gonna change blog song.
I find it nice, especially the chorus. xD

back to reality.

Saturday! What a great day to have fun.
Slept at 8am, woke up at 1pm ~_~
Was quite tired & all, but I aint gonna spoil saturday's outing by rotting at home on my bed.
Got up, on com, went to shower while loading.

Went into maple to ask jas & randy to get ready before we really go out to kill some time.
Took half an hour to 'make-up' a little ;x

2.30pm! Left house, went to the bus stop, met randy in the bus.
Reach bunk about 3.20pm or eariler. Went to bunk to find jas & zizu.
Met up with them before moving on to ps to have lunch.

As usual, while eating, chat & talk nonsense for quite awhile.
left the food court & went back to bunk.
While smoking, saw linnie. She was with her mom. Was gonna meet us after her shopping.

Well, this is the part where it gets damn boring.
On coms, play awhile till I met aizai & sub there with sub's girlfriend.
Clock once or so.
While clocking, stephanie sms! Told me she saw me at bunk.
But I didn't see her around. Thats unfair. >.<
Had our conversation practically throughout the night.

6.30pm! violentchan arrived, went to rocky master to have dinner.
yawn, was bored, decided to catch a movie at cathay.

Oh my gosh, no movies. all M18, & I had 3 under 16 with me. =(
All was disappointed, then zizu, for the 1st time came up with a great idea!
Slack & drink. Woot.
Went to an open so called pub opps Parklane,
Sat there, drank liquor & watch 2 games of football.
Linnie was down, so didn't concentrate much on the football game,
tried to console her together with
the other members.

Bourdon Coke & Vodkaa Orange! It was nice.
Jas & linnie said the vodkaa orange was bitter, but thats how alcohol taste like. xD
- Pictures will be uploaded tomorrow! -
Photographer went to sleep. >.<

1am ._.

Walk to bugis, as usual, went to find a lanshop to kill somemore time.
Scrolling session!

Jas earn his bottom.
chan scrolled his zakum helm.
I myself just earn a 20str top only. >.< with luck from my princess again ;D

Randy bomb his helm. LMAO.
His reaction was like a fucking ah gua. Screaming like a damn dog in the lanshop.
rofl, can't help it.

All of us had to have a good laugh. Decided to call it a day, off the coms,
went to wait for taxis.

5am. ~_~ goodness.

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Out from bathroom! Oh my, I'm coughing like mad now.
Throat has being giving me a problem this few days. Dying! ;D

Thats all for now! Toodies~
WAKE UP SMS! You know who.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

5:04 AM

Old school band with a brand new solid song. (;
Enjoy.

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I close the door.
Like so many times, so many times before.
Felt like a scene on the cutting floor.
When I let you walk away tonight without a word.

I try to sleep, yeah.
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.
A thousand more regrets unraveling. Oooh.
If you were here right now.
I swear, I'd tell you this.

Baby, I don't wanna waste another day.
Keeping this inside, it's killing me.
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you(to you).
I wish that I could find the words to say.
Baby, I would tell you everytime you leave.
I'm inconsolable.

I climb the walls, yeah.
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no.
I've memorized the number
SO why can't I make the call?
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me.
In the possibility.

Baby, I don't wanna waste another day.
Keeping it inside, it's killing me.
Cause all I ever wanted comes down right to you (to you).
I wish that I could find the words to say.
Baby, I would tell you everytime you leave.
I'm inconsolable.

No, no, no.

I don't wanna be like this.
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (ooh, can't let go).

Cause,

BABY, I don't wanna waste another day.
Keeping it inside, it's killing me.
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you).
I wish that I could find the words to say.
Baby I would tell you everytime you leave.
I'm inconsolable.

Don't you know it baby.
I don't wanna waste another day.
I wish that I could find the words to say.
Baby I would tell you, everytime you leave.
I'm inconsolable.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Ooh, I'm inconsolable.
Woaa yeah yeah oooh.
I'm inconsolable.

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Friday, a day whereby I go out to have a drink or two,
but friends complained they're tired, so oh well, rotted at home.
Not surprised, but just disappointed that my life is just getting more & more pathetic.

I miss the past badly, seriously, I wish I could just turn back the clock
when I was in secondary 1. Times at that age was the best.
Cellphone ringing time & again, asked out by friends to relax, do alil shopping etc.
But I guess its all over now.
Got into maple, knew some cool friends inside who can accompany me when I'm down.
Just too bad they're all working & don't have that spare time to enjoy.

Maybe its time to go back to hang out with my age group.
But its just too boring. I perfer being with older people, they just got that common thing with me.
Well, I don't know, currently, my friends that are 14-16, are quite into my lifestyle.
Slacking outside, chatting, killing time.

Unlike other groups, complaining & whinning when we're doing nothing but just chatting.
Maybe thats the kind of lifestyle that teens are going throught currently.
Count me out on that.

Tomorrow's saturday, hope that friends are available to go out to kill some time with me,
instead of rotting at home on a saturday. -_-' goodness.
Its boring.

Really miss those times when my dear (xxNe369ZhAxx), bro (x3rudit3x5iN) & other
members were too free that we're always out on a saturday no matter how low out
cash flow are.
Its just a dream that will never come back to me.
Just have to cherish those times when they're free & able to go out.
Can't believe my life is getting pathetic at my age. Instead of spending those last few
moments before National Service, I'm rotting like a dog at home with my own chain around my neck.

Yawn..

Can't stop thinking about the past. (;

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Not being able to see you is possible,
Not able to have that feeling is currently impossible.
Just need time to let that feeling fade.
Miss those times together.

'We're not fated to be together'

I don't believe in fate, I only believe in what can be done.
It takes 2 hand to clap. Fate has nothing to do with it.
Just communication & alittle luck.
Perheps its time to put the past into a memento stat & carry on with my life.
No one can't live without another's perserveance.
I glad that you're found a better guy to be with & not getting upsad when you're with me.
I wish you all the best & my blessings are with both of you.
Apperciate the past. Cherish the future.
I believe I can find happiness with another one like you do.
Hope that person can appear with all the love she got.

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Off to bed! Its 5am & I need some good rest for tomorrow's outing!
Toodies~

WITH LUCK, You'll see me or I'll see you there my princess. (;

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

4:41 AM

Being it if you're reading or not. I just felt like blogging after the incident.

If you think I'm spoiling your image, I apologize.
Thats what blogs are for, like you once said, vent your anger in blog.
I did that. Maybe I was harsh by saying those things.

Yes, I know we went our sperate ways, but that doesn't mean I can treat you as a friend totally.
With due respect, not insulting you.
Maybe to you, finding a new boyfriend is like just a blind of an eye.
I'm still trying to treat you as a friend. Not easy, but its for the best.

You're happy with your guy while I'm currently quite okay with my life.
I don't see why should we give each other cold shoulders just because of what happened
in the past.
Can say I'm being a coward, thats why I choose to apologize. Be it.
No more gangsterism. No more turning back to what I used to be in the past.

I thank you again for what was given by you onto me last 2 months.
For the sweetest month I ever had in my entire life. Its great to have that kind of feeling
even thou its just a month.

I thank you for bringing me back to reality
I thank you for what I am now.
For the words you once said, every word of it has a proper meaning.

Once a police officer told me.
Argue with your beloved girlfriend, they can report you for molest.
Thats the adventage for girls.
As for guys, the law doesn't give a shit about you,
but to the girl whom loved you,
a sincere sweet smile will do just the thing :D

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back to life
7days to chinese new year.
45days to happy birthday. xD

Thought twice about it, wanted to ask my mom to give me the cash instead of the chalet. ;x
But, its my 18th birthday.
Oh my gosh, its a MUST celebrate. xD
I hope it will be a memory celebration. Close friends pleaseeeeeee come~
Let me have a happy 1 day moment.

Yawn, didn't attend school for quite sometime.
Only went for 2nd lesson. I'm so confuse now.
Totally confuse, I don't know what to do. But its not about her. (;
Just my life. I'm so worried. Is it obivous? o.O
I hope not.

WELL, thats all for now. Before I start to let things turn into a too obivous way.
Toodies D;

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

1:24 AM