Visionary Philosopher. ♥

Wednesday morning.

Goodness, its 5.12am now, just finished training.
Since theres no school tomorrow, I'm gonna have a good sleep tonight.
Still, have to wake up at 12noon for my training. ;x

Back to games is great, i miss the old days,
but I'm back to the usual days where people claim as.
'Lifeless'

Well, who cares, as long as i'm happy with it.
I don't see why i need to please those around me. (;

But, playing games. Often i get caught up it with till
i neglected those friends i'm close with.
11days to big day, & i don't know why am i not feeling excited.

Too many things are happening & i don't wish to celebrate a
lousy 18th birthday.
I just wish i could turn back the clock when the thoughts
are just about you & me.

I need it so badly.. But its just a wishful dream.
Many times i tried to get close, but those around you,
just drag me down.

Confused, putting a strong front, but deep down.
I'm blank.
Maybe thats what you are. Its time i start to accept it.
But by accepting it, will what i hope to have come to me?

....

Learning throught love experience is diffcult,
but its only when mistakes won't be repeated.
Putting the heart to the test,
is the risk i must take.
I can't understand why can't one just be with the one they wish to be with.
Instead of having many.

But to any situation, your rejects
just won't let the heart start.
The moments were to be used to make
its move, but its when, you took the step
to push the away the followed footsteps.

I wish everything will be what i wish for
on the very day. 15th march.

18years living in this world.
This is the worse upcoming birthday feeling i'm currently going throught.

....

your actions were my everything.
your words is what i pray for.
your appearance is what i'm in need for.
your smile is all i ever need.

you're just the one i wanna be with.

I AM MR. HAN ZHI :D

5:22 AM